Days 6 & 7 - Reevaluation

Ok so today's a two-fer.

Saturday

• Bedtime will be 9pm on Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday. n/a
• Alcohol will be two nights a week (it's been getting a little out of hand! Definitely part of the lbs being packed on!) Drink night #3, oops. 
• If I miss a day of working out, I WILL NOT throw in the towel  Agree. This one is hard since I've been hurting since Thursday night. 
• Same as above, if I don't keep a PERFECTLY clean day, I will NOT take comfort in the candy dish. Yay! I had a s'more Saturday night - ONE s'more.
• Goal: 15,000 steps/day. If it means I march around my house for an hour before bed, so be it.  BAH. My FitBit was dead in the morning and I Forgot to put it on until about 1pm. So my total for the day was 3458. 

Saturday: Run - nope. Back still hurting pretty bad :(

Sunday

• Bedtime will be 9pm on Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday. n/a
• Alcohol will be two nights a week (it's been getting a little out of hand! Definitely part of the lbs being packed on!) None! I did try a sip of a new beer at our favorite restaurant, but didn't have a full glass of it. So three days total this week, only breaking my "rule" by 1. 
• If I miss a day of working out, I WILL NOT throw in the towel. The pain is almost gone today and we were supposed to go on a nice family bike ride. however when we woke up it was pouring rain and when the sun came out, the temp went up to 90 and the humidity was UNBEARABLE! We did some walking around the mall but that was the extent of it. I am, however, very anxious to get back to the gym tomorrow to test out my back. If all is well, I'll be doing my two classes in the AM and kickboxing in the evening.
• Same as above, if I don't keep a PERFECTLY clean day, I will NOT take comfort in the candy dish. The s'more last night whetted my appetite for sweets, I could tell that this morning. I fought myself all day not to sneak a Hershey's kiss or to drink a Fitz's root beer. But I didn't do it! I did have some pineapple to cut the sweet tooth. 
• Goal: 15,000 steps/day. If it means I march around my house for an hour before bed, so be it. 6,360 today.

Sunday: Insanity - nursing the back pain. Tomorrow I'm back to it.

Thanks for sticking with me this week! Thank you for all of the encouragement, the texts in the morning and the check-ins on how I'm doing. I had a discouraging day today. I went to grab some more work clothes and didn't fit into almost anything. But I did get a cute dress to wear to Jen's rehearsal dinner! Yay! I can see the changes that have been made in a short week of "making it work." That is making me want to try harder!

• I'm going to be more diligent about the bedtime. 
• I am going to lower my steps. Let's see if I can hit 10,000 everyday this week and what I need to do to get there and THEN we'll raise it up! 
• I'm going to add: 
• Drink 100oz of water/day
• Stay away from negative self talk. <-- Since I posted about body image last week, 3-4 other articles have come through my FB and Twitter feeds. I've been passing them along on those sites, but it just strikes me how many there have been! It seems as though I'm supposed to get something from it. Kind of makes you say Hmmmm doesn't it?   So this is going to be a new addition to my accountability list! I don't know exactly how to quantify it, but I am going to try to recognize those moments when I do it, and stop myself. Accepting compliments without making excuses, not changing my clothes 20 times even after everyone tells me I look fine in what I have on, definitely not talking about these things in front of my kiddos....  These will be my victories.

So next week's check in will look more like this: 

Bedtime before 9:30:

Alcohol (?/2): 

Workout: 

Eating: 

Steps: 

Water: 

Self-talk: 

Day 5. Slipping but not drowning.

• Bedtime will be 9pm on Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday.  n/a, yay weekends!
• Alcohol will be two nights a week (it's been getting a little out of hand! Definitely part of the lbs being packed on!) Wine tonight. This is night two and I guarantee I will be having something tomorrow night because we are having a bbq with friends, so fail. But see two bullets down....
• If I miss a day of working out, I WILL NOT throw in the towel 
• Same as above, if I don't keep a PERFECTLY clean day, I will NOT take comfort in the candy dish. I'm not giving up just because I slipped on one front!! I forgot to take lunch to work today, thinking I could make it through (hoping for a short day, silly me ;-)  I started shaking around 2:30 and headed out. I was as good as I could be at a grocery store deli - a grilled Asian chicken breast and 1/4 lb of poppyseed cole slaw. And a great new snack, these yummies! 
• Goal: 15,000 steps/day. If it means I march around my house for an hour before bed, so be it. Bwahahaha. Amendment: 10,000. Even still, I'm at 6692 right now. Probably not hitting 10K today either! But here's to a weekend of family fun!

Friday: Off

I DEFINITELY took my rest day seriously today. My back is so sore and achy... I just can't stand the thought of this taking weeks to heal, so I am really hopeful that I can kick the pain sooner rather than later. Aleve, muscle cream and hot water have helped so far. 

Just hoping to be able to get back to Insanity tomorrow, but let's be honest - if my back hurts, I'm not going for it. But it is the weekend and we can probably find the time to take a nice long walk as a family, which could get me to my 10K steps for sure!

The good news? I weighed in at 161.5 on Monday. This morning I weighed in at 157.5! So the changes I've made are obviously working.  I just need to stick with them long enough that they become routine! 

Day 4, a day late.

• Bedtime will be 9pm on Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday.  n/a for Thursday :-) 
• Alcohol will be two nights a week (it's been getting a little out of hand! Definitely part of the lbs being packed on!) None
• If I miss a day of working out, I WILL NOT throw in the towel  Kickboxing FTW
• Same as above, if I don't keep a PERFECTLY clean day, I will NOT take comfort in the candy dish. I had a piece of primal fudge but nothing else "bad" 
• Goal: 15,000 steps/day. If it means I march around my house for an hour before bed, so be it.  11,250. Starting to think 15,000 is unattainable for a "normal" day, especially with my workouts being more stationary with the Insanity videos....

Thursday: Insanity AM or during the day Kickboxing.

Sure am happy Friday is an 'off' day because I hurt my back again during kickboxing! I think it has to do with the size of the room! On Mondays we are in a small room and are all sardined in. But Thursdays we are in a bigger room and I think there are less people. I think I am hyper-extending, especially when kicking backwards, which is causing me SEVERE back pain!! 

Day 3: ooohhh soooo sleepy

So the 4:30 wakeups have started catching up with me! I'm also trying to drink more water/less coffee so maybe that is the cause of my exhaustion today. (??) I know I was more irritable for sure (wanted to trip the guy walking around my cube at work talking on his cell phone for a half hour!) and sooo tired!

• Bedtime will be 9pm on Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday.  Ugh, 10 now. 9 may be a bit unrealistic for me!
• Alcohol will be two nights a week (it's been getting a little out of hand! Definitely part of the lbs being packed on!) One of my two tonight! Yum! Shiraz is even better when I'm not drinking it so often :-)
• If I miss a day of working out, I WILL NOT throw in the towel  Nope!! Woke up at 4:30 and finished Insanity Pure Cardio!
• Same as above, if I don't keep a PERFECTLY clean day, I will NOT take comfort in the candy dish.  No candy! I did have about 1Tbsp of flavored creamer today in my coffee (see the first paragraph about being exhausted... :-) 
• Goal: 15,000 steps/day. If it means I march around my house for an hour before bed, so be it.  9,600 as of 10:04pm, but I may be able to wander around enough to hit 10,000. 15,000 will be hard tonight :( 

Wednesday: Insanity AM DONE! although I must admit I'm disappointed that after I drip sweat for 45 minutes, my FitBit only gives me 275 calories burned! I feel like it burns a WHOLE LOT MORE :-) 

Day 2. Baby steps!

Thanks to my lovely early rising friends who sent me FB messages and texts at 4:30 this am, I woke up and did Insanity! And thankfully it was Cardio Recovery because I am so sore I don't think I could have managed ANYTHING ELSE! My back, my legs, my shoulders, my abs - all killing me. And I am loving EVERY second of it!

• Bedtime will be 9pm on Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday.  10:19 now and haven't gotten ready. Fail. 
• Alcohol will be two nights a week (it's been getting a little out of hand! Definitely part of the lbs being packed on!) None tonight!
• If I miss a day of working out, I WILL NOT throw in the towel I worked out this morning at 5! Woop woop!
• Same as above, if I don't keep a PERFECTLY clean day, I will NOT take comfort in the candy dish. I did pretty well today. I'm well under my calorie goal and didn't "cheat"
• Goal: 15,000 steps/day. If it means I march around my house for an hour before bed, so be it. Fail. I'm at 6,116 and only plan on walking from my chair to the bathroom to get ready for bed, then into bed. Still hoping to wake up tomorrow am, even with the late bedtime!

Tuesday: Insanity AM Done!

3/5 goals met isn't too bad, odds are in my favor. And tomorrow is another day!

Operation: Accountability Day 1 :)

Survived day 1 :)

• Bedtime will be 9pm on Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday. Fail- in bed by 9:30 tonight though! 
• Alcohol will be two nights a week (it's been getting a little out of hand! Definitely part of the lbs being packed on!) none tonight! 
• If I miss a day of working out, IWILL NOT throw in the towel n/a I worked out twice today! 
• Same as above, if I don't keep a PERFECTLY clean day, I will NOT take comfort in the candy dish. I did pretty well with my eating
• Goal: 15,000 steps/day. If it means I march around my house for an hour before bed, so be it. 17,003 is my total! 

Monday: Circuit & Kickboxing check! 

Today was great! I discovered a new smoothie that I like (weird because I HATE smoothies as a rule) and worked out twice! My 2 classes in the morning then my kickboxing class at night.

Feeling good. It felt awesome to be back to my classes- it was like going home!

Small victory: took the kids to Dairy Queen to meet some friends and I didn't order anything for me, not did I steal any of the kids' ice cream! 

I need to add "drink 100oz water/day minimum" to my list of new rules!

Accountability (AKA What I Need)

I need to get my butt in gear. Seriously people, I weighed in at 160 this week. NOT a pretty sight. I am going to make this a priority now.

New Rules

• Bedtime will be 9pm on Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday. 
• Alcohol will be two nights a week (it's been getting a little out of hand! Definitely part of the lbs being packed on!)
• If I miss a day of working out, I WILL NOT throw in the towel 
• Same as above, if I don't keep a PERFECTLY clean day, I will NOT take comfort in the candy dish. 
• Goal: 15,000 steps/day. If it means I march around my house for an hour before bed, so be it. 

Monday: Circuit & Kickboxing

Tuesday: Insanity AM

Wednesday: Insanity AM

Thursday: Insanity AM or during the day

Friday: Off

Saturday: Run

Sunday: Insanity

My reality check for the day: 

June 9, 2013

Heck, forget a year ago. Here's a few WEEKS ago:

So it'll take me longer, since I'm working now. 

Scheduling will be critical to my success. Working only 20 hours a week seems like I should be able to work out before or after work without getting in the way, but I am NOT a morning person so going to the gym before 8 is probably a no-go.  I tried leaving work at 2pm on Tuesdays and Wednesdays, but I CAN'T do it. I have a problem leaving work in the middle of a project. And around 2pm? I seem to ALWAYS be in the middle of something! 

So I will set an alarm. Maybe 2.

I WILL get up those mornings at 4:30 and do Insanity. 

I WILL get back to clean eating so that I can stop feeling like gross trash. 

I can't keep being surrounded by people who are rocking it without doing my fair share of rocking. So here goes. I miss being one of the rock stars. It's time to ditch the lazy attitude I've had and the bad eating habits. It's time to feel GOOD again and I am the ONLY person who can make that happen.  

I know I CAN do it. I just need to get up and go to actually ACCOMPLISH it. And I will. I've lost 30+ lbs in the last 2 years. Staying at goal weight has been the hardest part of the whole journey!

So here's to goals. And dreams. And being healthy. And teaching my KIDS about healthy eating and a healthy lifestyle!